June 7, 2011: Fasting Day 2/3

June 7 Weigh-in:

Weight: 118

BMI: 17.9

Total pounds lost: 2.5

Thanks to everyone who voted on the dresses! It helped a lot :) I went with dress #1, which got the most votes! I like it a lot more when I tried on a size smaller... the size 2 was a little big on me, so I had to by a 0! And it looks perfect with my new black heels! I'm very pleased with my choice. Thanks so much for helping!! :)

Today has been easy/hard. I've gone through times today where fasting feels really easy, because it's 100 degrees out and eating just sounds gross. However, working out was really hard because I felt like I had no energy. I burned 266 calories nonetheless. When I saw myself in that size 0 dress today - I simply had no doubts that this is worth. Only one more day tomorrow. I can do this. I WILL finish this fast. Please, everyone, wish me luck!!

Think thin!

-Lita

Shopping, Dresses and ABS! Opinions/Votes Requested/Needed!! :)

So, I was driving around with this guy...

...and we decided to hit the mall! I am STILL trying to find a dress for my graduation. I'm not doing the cap and gown thing because I'm not feeling the warm fuzzies from being traditional about it, so I decided to use the money to buy myself a cute dress instead! I've found nice dresses but nothing that super stands out to me. However, I'm getting down to crunch time and need to choose! Any opinions on the dresses below? I need help!!

#1

#2

#3

Oh yeah... and I thought I'd throw in a picture of my abs... just for funzies :)

Please vote on your favorite dress! It will help me out so much. Maybe I'll find a different dress altogether but for now, this is worthwhile :) Thank you all so much! Think thin!

-Lita

June 6, 2011 - Fasting Day 1/3

June 6 Weigh-in:

Weight: 120.5

BMI: 18.3

First off, if you want to see more of the Korean woman featured as thinspo in this post, click here! She has an amazing, extensive gallery and is a truly beautiful and dedicated model. I always love seeing more from her :)

Ahhh, back to fasting :) It's really nice. I haven't done a fast in awhile. I've been restricting and occasionally binging, but I haven't done a full-out fast in probably over a month. One of my favorite little things that happen when I fast is already noticeable - the whites of my eyes are clearing up, becoming whiter and more vibrant. I love it :) I also burned an extra 274 calories today in exercise. I can't wait to weigh in tomorrow!!

Oh, right, goals! I forgot that I haven't shared them yet. I decided that I want to get down to 114.5, a BMI of 17.4. This means that I have to lose an average of 2 pounds per day, which with the exercise on top of the fast, should be doable. The BMI of 17.4 is below my limit of a BMI of 17.5, but I am doing this because I want to be able to indulge during the festivities on Thursday without regrets :) I know I can do this!!

GoxXy: Thanks so much for joining me on this fast! I received your first e-mail and I am pleased that we have the same goal of losing a total of 6 pounds over these 3 days! I know we can do it!

Think thin :)

-Lita

3 Day Fast - Who's With Me? :)

Hello everyone!

First off, thank you SO MUCH to everyone who took the time to comment on my last post. I really needed to hear those words. AJ, what you said really rung true to me: "Blogging can bring comfort, knowing you are not alone in your thoughts, but then sometimes, alone in your thoughts is all you want to be." I think you pretty much summed up everything I was trying to say in that last post in one sentence! You all helped me remember that my blog is simply for me to record my thoughts, share with a community that has become dear to me, and perhaps inspire a few wonderful people along the way. Thanks so much to everyone for being so understanding and insightful. You all rock :)

So... exciting things are on the horizon! On Friday, I graduate. From high school. FINALLY. I'm so excited!! I have loved going to art school for the past 2 years... it has been SUCH a fantastic experience... but, I'm ready to move on. Start a new chapter in life. So, to prepare, I have decided to embark on a 3 day fast.

I fast for so many reasons. One, the most obvious perhaps, is the weight loss. I usually lose an average of 2 pounds each day I water/tea fast, so it's a quick way to lose weight. I also fast to gain focus, insight, determination. This time, I want to fast specifically to get ready for an event that is truly a milestone in my life - my high school graduation. I want to look stunning as I receive my diploma, and I want to meditate on everything this day means as I go through this fast. Does anyone want to join me on this adventure? It would be nice to have someone to keep in touch with while I fast. :)

Thanks again to everyone for being so fantastic!! Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday = no food, light exercise, preparation for a long-awaited event. Think thin :)

Lita

June 5, 2011

Hello, ladies.

I write not knowing whether there will ever be a "normal" post from me on this blog again.

Honestly, it's getting harder and harder for me to update my blog each day, and here's why: my thoughts on what I want, need, and should do keep changing each and every day, usually multiple times throughout the day. I feel so conflicted, and I don't feel as if this is a place where I can come and express that. Not because I feel uncomfortable, because all of you have been so supportive and encouraging time and time again... but because I simply feel inadequately suited to articulate the thoughts of my own mind. I'm sorry. I'll blog when I can, but I can't promise any consistency, or even offer to be that inspiration that I have become for some of you. It has been amazing to be an inspiration, but at the same time, maybe I've let this blog pressure me too much. Maybe I just need to let myself BE, and make my decisions day by day, instead of feeling like I need to stick to a "plan of action" because I wrote about it on my blog. The truth is, some days I feel like I need to fast, others restrict, others eat healthily, others binge. I'm just not a consistent person, about as consistent as my weight, which has continued to fluctuate from 114-120.5 over the past few weeks. I'm happy at those weights, I really am. But I just want to be able to go with the flow of what I feel my body needs instead of worrying about people feeling bad for me because I binged. I don't want people to feel bad for, or sympathize with, or pity me for binging. Is this making any sense?? I worry that my thoughts are becoming less and less concrete. Can anyone relate?

This probably isn't a post any of you were expecting. I sincerely apologize. Maybe one day I'll go back to my daily update days, but for now... these are the dysfunctional thoughts of my mind.

Peace, ladies,

Lita

It's been a whole week! I'm so sorry!!!

Today's Stats:

Weight: 115

BMI: 17.5

Intake: 1219

Outtake: 520

Total: 699

Hello, ladies :) It's been an entire week since I posted last! I sincerely apologize, especially to my most dedicated followers, but let me explain! I really needed the break from blogging. I found myself in a position of not knowing what I want and on top of that not knowing how to articulate my confusion to all of you. So, I took a week to speculate and pull myself together. And now I'm back :)

Here's what I discovered on my blogging break: My summer goals!! For the summer, I want to 1) Eat healthy 2) Burn at least 500 calories a day in exercise and 3) Maintain a weight of 116-120. If I go above 120, I'm going to fast. I think this will be much healthier than my hardcore restricting habits, because I will fast every now and then instead of most of the time. Also burning more calories in exercise instead of restricting them will help me tone up! What do you think of this plan, ladies? Any suggestions/comments/etc?

amber-angelxo: I've only told two people about my eating habits - my boyfriend and one of my best friends. I told my boyfriend about it after he confessed to me that he struggles with a minor case of depression - it all came out in a little heart-to-heart session, and I think for the better. I want him to understand me and accept me even for the slightly crazy parts of me, and I'm happy to find that he always does :) As for my best friend, she struggles with a BED so she totally understands where I am coming from. We have such a great friendship because we support each other in everything. I love her :)

Thin thin!

Lita