BACK IN WEIGHT RANGE!!

Good news, everyone!!

I'm back in my weight range! I'm at 121.4, a BMI of 18.3!!

I'm so happy :)

So far today I've eaten more than I would have liked, but my workout was hardcore so hopefully that will make up for it. Actually, I ate so much my tummy hurt :( However, since starting to eat less it's gotten harder and harder for me to pig out without getting sick/a huge stomach ache! I used to be able to eat a ton without feeling any effects (except for weight gain). I've changed.

Hopefully the progress will continue. Peace, ladies. :)

-Lita

Spring is Here!

I'm so glad it's spring again because that means I can start biking places!! I love biking everywhere once the snow melts to complement my regular workouts. Biking is probably the main reason why I'm always in better shape during the spring/summer/fall than in winter. It's also EASIER to stay thin when one can be outside, enjoying nature, instead of locked up indoors with the temptations of food.

What inspires me to write about this, you ask? How WONDERFUL I feel after biking to and from work today! Granted, it's only about 15 minutes of biking altogether, but combined with my morning workout, successful diet so far today, and fresh spring air, I feel so refreshed, beautiful, successful!

Thank you, spring :)

-Lita

Almost back in my weight range!!

I'm down .8 pounds! Yippee!! :)

My new workout plan is super strenuous. I was able to work out again today but I'm going to have to work myself up to doing the entire plan. Here's what I managed today:

Ran 1 mile, did 125 squats, did a 1 min 15 sec wall sit, 50 leg lifts, 250 crunches, 125 side benders, 50 push ups, stretches

I'm going to have to get A LOT stronger to be to pull off the entire plan at once! What I accomplished is a 1/4 of the full plan. I have a long way to go.

Diet wise, I'm off to a good start today! 2 glasses of water, a cup of green tea and a cup of blueberries so far. I'm feeling good :)

Well, I have to go get ready for work now. I can't wait until I go off to college and can start applying for a new job! I'm thankful that I have a job and am making money, but it's time for something new.

Peace, ladies, and stay slim :)

-Lita

:(

This morning on the scale I weighed myself... I'm at 124 pounds.

Ugh.

I know why this happened. Yesterday at my advisement and registration session, there were donuts. There were excessive amounts of cafeteria food. My mom and I got sushi afterwards. In the evening when we finally got home around 7:30, my day turned into an all-out binge with no time for exercise - not that I could have even attempted a work out with how sore I was (and still am). I am going to fix this TODAY.

Although I'm still in no condition to exercise, I'll be restricting my diet hardcore. Water, green tea, juice, veggies, fruit, and maybe one sinful piece of food during the day. So far I've had a cup of black tea and a small bowl of blueberries. If I keep this up I KNOW I'll be down by tomorrow.

Peace and stay thin, ladies!

-Lita

SORE

I am SO SORE today!! Thus, I had to take the day off. I don't think I could have worked out if I tried. I could barely walk right. This is all due to my new workout plan. My body is evidently not used to the amounts of cardio and strength exercises. I will definitely be attempting again tomorrow, but today was not the day for that!

I had SUCH a great day, though :) I went to register for classes at college, and found out I made it into the honors program! That puts me in the top 2% of students at the university! I didn't expect anything like this to happen. I'm thrilled!

I'll be taking 14 credits my freshman year and also be trying to get a work study with the university. The location of the school is gorgeous, I couldn't be happier with it. Although, I'm realizing where the "freshman 15" must come from! The cafeteria situation totally allows one to pig out while in college! I plan on restricting myself to one meal a day in college and luckily, I'll have dance classes twice a week!! I also plan on bringing my scale with me. I will NOT be gaining that freshman 15. :)

Peace, ladies!

-Lita

March 27, 2011

Weight: 120.8

BMI: 18.2

Calories: 975

Workout: 4 miles, 300 squats, 3 min wall sit, 75 leg lifts, 200 crunches, 100 side benders, 50 push ups

Today, I felt great. It was good to get on the scale this morning, even after my horrible binge day yesterday when I ate an entire box of Girl Scout cookies by myself, and saw that I am still within my desired weight/BMI range! My workout was hardcore today but so worth it. I felt sexy and cute all day long. Bliss. Plus, I didn't feel deprived. The 975 calories I ate today were well spent. I am happy, and ready to show myself off tomorrow at college advisement and registration! Hopefully tomorrow will be just as fulfilling as today :)

Peace always,

Lita

Scattered Pieces

Hello, everyone!

I seem to be very jumbled lately, unable to harness control. Since coming home for spring break I have given into the temptations of food, and, well, I'm not sure what to think of it, except that I know life is simply an unending journey and so I am certain to learn something from this whole experience. I have been thinking about my goals in what I hope is a better perspective, and here it is:

I really do believe that "underweight" is beautiful, underweight being anywhere from a 16 to an 18.5 BMI. Anything lower than 16 is unhealthy (yes, I do believe "underweight" can be healthy, thus the quotation marks) and anything above 18.5... well, it can be beautiful, but not for me. I want that slim, gorgeous, model body, and I will have it! Here's my plan:

Lita's Thinspired Checklist

• Prioritize: Water, coffee and green tea, juice and diet soda, celery and lettuce, diet pills and laxatives, food

• Eat less than a thousand calories/day

• Workout routine: Run four miles, 500 squats, 5 min wall sit, 200 leg lifts, 1000 crunches, 500 side benders, 200 push ups

• Stand as much as possible, don't sit

• Sleep 8 hours

• Wear light make up

• Smile and laugh all the time

  My goal is to maintain a weight anywhere between 106-122.5 pounds, no more, no less. Hopefully my checklist above will help me reach that goal. If I need to modify it I will.

  Thank goodness for this blog. It helps me organize my thoughts. And thanks to you, my readers. You are cherished and beautiful :)

  Always,

  Lita

Ugh...

So yesterday was not so good. I'm finding out that being home on spring break is going to make it a lot harder to maintain my weight-loss habits. There's so much more food around me, and foods I haven't had in forever living at the dorms and eating only cafeteria food. A complete dissolve of structure also makes it difficult. So needless to say, I had a partial-binge day yesterday (partial, because it only lasted for about an hour) and I didn't even get to work out. On top of this, I felt especially bad about the cookies I ate when I ended up having a spontaneous photo shoot with a friend of mine. Ugh! Why?? The photos turned out great from what I got a sneak peek of, but I know I would have been SO much more confident if I hadn't just ate - yes, humiliatingly - 7 girl scout cookies. Ew, ew, ew!!

Today so far, I've been back on track. I didn't dare go on the scale this morning. I plan on waiting until tomorrow. I also hope to burn extra calories today to make up for my epic fail yesterday. As bad as I feel about this, I know it's not the end of the world. Days like this happen. It just stinks that it happened the day I reached my goal (you think THAT would have sustained me!) and I ended up having a photo shoot. OH WELL.

New thinspiration: Milla Jovovich. BMI: 17.6. Gorgeous. It would be amazing to look like her.

Peace, ladies, and stay slim!!

-Lita

March 24, 2011

Weight: 120.5

BMI: 18.2

Cal intake: 914

Cal outtake: 300

Total cal: 614

I lost another pound!! I'm so happy. I'm one step closer toward my goal! I'm hoping the scale will show something positive tomorrow even though I didn't get to work out as much today. I had SUCH a crazy day! I had school 8-6, then rehearsal for the cabaret 6:30-9, and then of COURSE I had to catch up on the latest episode of ANTM with the sis! So by the time I was done with all that on top of practice and an annoying fire alarm at the dorms due to burnt popcorn, I FINALLY had time to work out at 11:45! And I'm so glad I did. I've been needing a lot less sleep lately, and even though I felt tired before I started working out, I feel great now! Plus, there's always caffeine to fall back on in the morning :)

A beautiful moment happened to me today. In directing class, we did an activity where we created tableaus. I was paired with a guy, and in one of our poses he lifted me up in his arms. I felt SO LIGHT. It was incredible. When he went to pick me up I was worried he would struggle with it because even though he's muscular, he's fairly small and he's also shorter than me. But he picked me up multiple times during the exercise, and it made me feel small, cute, adorable! It also made me want to keep moving toward my goal, because feeling small feels GREAT. It's rewarding, and doesn't let you down unlike so many other things in life.

Tomorrow: I hope to be closer to 119!! I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Thin has a taste all its own.

-Lita

March 23, 2011

Weight: 121.5

BMI: 18.3

Cal intake: 854

Cal outtake: 550

Total cal: 304

I was SO happy this morning when I got on the scale and saw that I lost 1.5 pounds!! I am SO close to my goal. I will be looking for a new thinspiration shortly :)

My calorie intake was lower today, but it was hard to make it so. I experienced strong cravings and had to suppress them. Also, the workout just about killed me, as great as I felt after I cooled off with some water. My total calorie intake was lower. Baby steps - that's how you reach a goal!

What will the scale say tomorrow? I am optimistic. I worked hard today and didn't give into my cravings. It's certain to pay off. I am longing for that beautiful BMI of 18. Almost there, almost there! I'll let you know tomorrow. For now, peace everyone, and stay skinny!

Love always,

Lita

Introduction

Hello everyone!

This is my very first blog post, so please take it easy! I will start by introducing myself in relation to thinspiration (that rhymed!). I recently discovered this term, but it has been a part of me my entire life. I have always been obsessed with weight, exercise, nutrition, health, spirituality - all things I find to be a very big part of the pro-ana/thinspiration world. I diet, I don't diet. I fast, I don't fast. Food is an object I have an uncertain relationship with. I don't know if it's good or if it's bad. All I know is that if I binge, I feel awful, and I get fat, and that is one of the worst feelings in the world. I also know that when I lose weight and my belly is flat I feel happy and accomplished inside. I'm thankful to find that I am not alone. I have found many other blogs relating to this topic, which is one of the reasons I decided to start my own. We NEED to be sharing with one another, even if it is done anonymously, as I am doing. Call me Lita, which means "light", and is what I hope to be for others.

Probably what you're wondering as of now, my current stats:

Age: 18

Height: 5'8.25" (That quarter is VERY important to me!)

HW: 127

LW: 119

CW: 123

GW: 119

My current thinspiration is Emma Watson, who has a BMI of 18. My goal is to drop from my current BMI of 18.6 to that 18, and then see where I want to go from there. All I know is that I never, ever want to get anywhere CLOSE to that 127. NEVER AGAIN.

Today went really well for me. I have been living by an "ana pyramid" I found on a blog site and love. It includes water, coffee and tea, juice and diet soda, vegetables, supplements, and then only sparingly, food (I modified this a bit from the pyramid on the blog). Today:

Weight: 123

BMI: 18.6

Cal intake: 907 (More than I would like... but at least the workout made up for it. Mostly.)

Cal outtake: 550 calories

Total cal: 357

Hopefully I will see at least a pound gone tomorrow morning. I hope, I hope, I hope!

The reason I chose the blog title "Wanting to Wear Anything" is because THAT is my goal - to wear anything and look amazing. I need to be a hanger for clothes to hang well. I'm not there yet, as I keep realizing more and more each day.

Thank you for allowing me this lengthy introduction. I look forward to sharing with you as often as I am capable, hopefully every day! Please share your thoughts and thinspirations. "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels."

Always,

Lita